My angels have been leading me to ask a lot of “why” questions of myself today. Why do I feel called to be a healer? Why am I writing? Why am I connecting to angels? Why am I asking why?
These questions started with who questions, including the unanswerable “who am I?”.
I know that I am love and light. I was created in the image of the Divine, and the Divine is love and light. I am cool with that. And I believe we are all love and light, even when we do not know it and even when our actions seem to indicate otherwise.
But this answer doesn’t not help me in my daily life. “Okay, I am love and light. Now what?”
This reminds me of a time that a teacher led a meditation that took us deep down inside. He said, “your body is only a meatsuit, go into the depths of your being within the meatsuit.” Some in the class, got so insulted by the term “meatsuit,” they could not go any further with the meditation. I thought it was a brave way of speaking truth, refreshingly honest even. I had never heard anyone say that so bluntly. I enthusiastically followed his directions to go deeper and deeper inside myself.
For a while I was sensing darkness, like a void, it was if there was nothing there and then he said, “go down even deeper, now what do you see?” I thought to myself, what could be below this void? How could there be anything below what feels like nothing? But I followed his directions and after a minute or so of inner searching, I felt this awesome sense of love. I did not want to move. I wanted to stay there forever. It was delicious, it was indescribably good, I just wanted to bathe in it for the rest of my life.
And then the teacher, said, “now slowly bring your attention to the room.” I really wanted to say, “No way! I am staying here,” but I knew that there was another class coming in after this one, so I could not just sit there. I had to bring my awareness back to the room.
After the class, I went up to him. Some of the students were arguing with him about how he dared to call our bodies meatsuits. I waited until they left, and then I asked, “So, I got down below a sense of nothingness, and then I felt this amazing sense of love, but I could not move. So, what do I do with this? How do I live my life?”
He smiled, and said, “Ah. Go to that place you found and just live from there. When you are to move, your body will feel an urge to move. If not, stay still and be. It is as simple as that.”
I wish I could say I started to live every day and every moment from that place. I did not. But I still remember it, and when I allow myself, particularly when I connect to my angels, I feel it and I know it to be the truth of my being.
For now, that is my best answer on the “who” question. But what about the “why’s”? I don’t have as clear an answer, but it sure feels right to keep asking. Occasionally, I get an answer, like “It feels good”, “it seems to shift my client’s energy to a better place”, “it is a way to share this love and light I feel” and “why not?”
Why not? That question seemed to pop out of nowhere. I did not have an answer for it. I realized if I didn’t have an answer to why not, then it was a sign to keep moving in that direction, even if I had not answered all of the why’s.
I will continue to ask the who questions because I think they inform me of my essential nature, even if the answers are never complete. And I will continue to ask the why questions because whatever answers I give help me feel a sense a direction, especially if when I ask why not, I have no answer.
Which of these questions have more meaning to you? Do you get more out of asking who you are or why you are or why you do? And when you have no answer to why not, do you take the leap?
I would love to hear your thoughts on these questions in the comments below and what question gives you the greatest meaning in your life. Feel free to email me if you would like to explore them further or would like some help from me and my angel team.
Many angel blessings,
Lilia Shoshanna Rae
Author of The Art of Listening to Angels
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